Jaina Solo Fel (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
solo_sword) wrote2009-07-06 10:38 pm
solo_sword) wrote2009-07-06 10:38 pm
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Galaxy Qust A3, Monday night/morning after radio
When Jaina woke up again in the dead of night, there was a wave of annoyance under the fading terror. It'd be easier if she didn't remember what she'd been dreaming, but she remembered Myrkr when her subconscious wasn't working overtime, and this was so vivid...
For a moment she just lay there, listening to make sure no one sounded like they were coming to check on her and wondering why she kept having these. She'd had nightmares about that mission, sure. She thought she probably would for the rest of her life. It was a traumatic experience, sure, but she couldn't understand why it was coming back at her now. She'd had the trauma, she'd gone to the dark side, she'd come back from it, she'd gone on with her life more or less like normal for the last year-
And it clicked.
Anniversaries didn't so much matter to Jaina. Her timelines were so messed up that there was no use for keeping track of dates. There was one anniversary she bothered to remember and she wasn't even sure whether that one was something she should be keeping track of now. No, she remembered coming back to Fandom after Hapes and waking up in the cabins with the memory still fresh and doing whatever she could to suppress it so she could go about her daily life without being a sobbing mess The dates didn't matter. It was all about the setting and the circumstances.
She had how much longer to spend out here?
It didn't take long to figure out the next step. Very simply, she didn't want to deal with it right now. She was still reeling enough after that vision, but throw in the realization that she'd stumbled into the worst anniversary ever and it was just too much at once. That was why she was getting out of bed, trying not to wake anyone with her movements as she got dressed, threw a bag together, and made a call. Might as well take advantage of timelines when they actually worked for her, right?
[NFB, NFIIIIIIIIII. Have I tl;dr'ed at y'all enough?]
For a moment she just lay there, listening to make sure no one sounded like they were coming to check on her and wondering why she kept having these. She'd had nightmares about that mission, sure. She thought she probably would for the rest of her life. It was a traumatic experience, sure, but she couldn't understand why it was coming back at her now. She'd had the trauma, she'd gone to the dark side, she'd come back from it, she'd gone on with her life more or less like normal for the last year-
And it clicked.
Anniversaries didn't so much matter to Jaina. Her timelines were so messed up that there was no use for keeping track of dates. There was one anniversary she bothered to remember and she wasn't even sure whether that one was something she should be keeping track of now. No, she remembered coming back to Fandom after Hapes and waking up in the cabins with the memory still fresh and doing whatever she could to suppress it so she could go about her daily life without being a sobbing mess The dates didn't matter. It was all about the setting and the circumstances.
She had how much longer to spend out here?
It didn't take long to figure out the next step. Very simply, she didn't want to deal with it right now. She was still reeling enough after that vision, but throw in the realization that she'd stumbled into the worst anniversary ever and it was just too much at once. That was why she was getting out of bed, trying not to wake anyone with her movements as she got dressed, threw a bag together, and made a call. Might as well take advantage of timelines when they actually worked for her, right?
[NFB, NFIIIIIIIIII. Have I tl;dr'ed at y'all enough?]