Office hours- Monday

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Jaina would have never figured that her first real office would be the one she had as a teacher at Fandom High. Nothing about it made any sense to her. Yet here she was.

She figured no one would be coming in on a holiday, so she wasn't too hard on herself for coming in later than planned when her training ran long. (Trust her, there were reasons for training to run long this morning.) Leaving the door open, she sat behind the desk, trying to get everything set up the way she wanted it.

You don't want to know how long it took her to get her chair to the right height. It was a little embarrassing.

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"Now, offering to let me steal your ship...that would be a little different," John replied, giving her boots a little smack with his hand.

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"Steal isn't going to happen," she said, frowning at him. "Borrow... might." He was hands down the only person she'd even consider letting in her ship, actually.

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"And what might I need to do to get upgraded to borrower status?" John asked. And if he had that particular look in his eyes, well, he was kind of a whore, okay?

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Even after how close things had gotten yesterday, she was not nearly that bad. "Ask nicely?" She just wanted to see if he would.

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"Nicely?" She had to know that look was coming.

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"Nicely. Meant in the normal way, not... our way, so don't get any ideas." Because yeah.

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"Our way was normal," John argued, smirk evident. "Does your ship seat two?"

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"Just one. And the astromech watching should be too kinky for either of us anyway," she said, despite kind of wishing it was a two-seater.

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John's face fell. "Disappointing. I really gotta get my hands on a 'jumper." She'd dig that.

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"Two seater, I'm guessing?" She so shouldn't be thinking about it, especially since there wasn't one here, but it was kind of reminding her of an old fantasy she'd had about the cockpit of the shuttles they'd take back to her galaxy. This was so not helping anything.

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"Four seater up front," John shared. "Then two convertible benches in the back...plenty of space for anything you might get up to."

He sighed, sad he didn't have one accessible. "You know, I could show you one in the holodeck sometime."

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"And now we're back to the bad ideas," she reminded him, trying to distract herself from thinking all of that sounded kind of good.

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"I still like bad ideas," John added, not having been the one to break things off the night before when things were just getting interesting. "But I know you don't."

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"It's not like that I don't like them," she protested. If she wasn't repressing as much as she was, she'd have taken him to the mat in the gym two weeks ago. "It's just... bad ideas are bad ideas for a reason."

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"So enumerate them for me," he said, tapping the arm of her chair with his shoe. "Then I might stop having them." Or at least saying them out loud.

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Jaina shrugged, and said, "You know one. Not wanting to turn into just some girl you slept with. Not wanting things to be weird after. That's two."

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"Come on, Jaina, like you could ever just be some girl," he reminded her. "And why would it be weird? In case you forgot, we slept together a lot. A lot, a lot. It's like a continuation of the part that always worked out."

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"That would be another reason," she said, not looking happy about it.

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"Okay, you keep thinking of reasons to say no and I'll do my best not to remind you of how great it could be." Like a mini escape from reality.

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"Trust me, I've been reminded." She was realizing she might have to say the part she really didn't want to, in large part because she was worried it might make him back away from her entirely. "Look... Barring Fandom weirdness, I've never been with anyone I wasn't in a relationship with. Even when we hooked up after we broke up, I wanted to be back in it. For all I know, I'd be fine with the casual thing," she said. It wasn't like she hadn't been willing to go for the one night stand with Chuck, after all. "But there's history with us. And it's you."

And she was completely afraid she wouldn't be able to separate herself from the feelings she was passing off as sexual tension, or her just being someone who got overly attached to her exes.

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He made a face. "It's gotta be complicated huh? Nothing easy or free with us?" Whether she was still in love with him or just afraid of falling for him again, he knew the answer was probably a giant 'back off, John.'

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"I don't know," she said, shaking her head. "I think it's just me. It is easy with you, and I don't want a relationship, with anyone. I'm done with all that. I just don't know yet where it leaves me when it comes to this sort of thing."

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"So...you don't want me, but you don't want anyone else either?" Oh, she might be more messed up than he was after all.

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"That's not it. I haven't had a problem turning anyone else down," she confessed. "When you say I could never just be some girl... I think it's the same way for me with you. And if you make some crack about not being a girl I will push you off my desk."

She so, so wished she was better with words.

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"Well, there were a few weeks back in college..." John recalled, taking the moment to lighten things a hair if possible. "But I think I get it. You're just not going there...ever. Or, at the very least, not with this fool."