MHA #-1- Wednesday evening

[solo_sword]

Okay. So. Obviously this week was one of those weeks. The last time this had happened, Jaina was completely fine with it, due to having a boyfriend she could lock herself in a room with for a few days. When you were single and didn't have that option and this all hadn't ended after a few days, it wasn't as fun. It was frustrating. And you might think training might take some of the edge off, but no. It didn't.

She put up with that for two whole days before basically deciding screw it, if she was going to have this little friendly arrangement, this was a very good time to take advantage of it. Which was how she ended up heading over to MHA and knocking on the door of a certain basement apartment and thinking he better be home. And that no one else should be there.

[For he who rents said apartment.]

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"What's that supposed to even mean?" John said, really not getting it.

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"It means I've been sitting here knowing you're doing things like dating women who use tricks to get guys into bed and having angry sex with Chuck Bass- repeatedly- and you don't need me at all, but I'm the idiot who still loves you anyway, and it doesn't even matter."

As soon as she realized what she said she was burying her face in her hands and praying he passed over hearing one certain part. This couldn't be happening.

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There was a part of John that wanted to pull her close and tell her that it mattered and that if anyone could fix the mess he'd become it was her.

But it was wrong. John knew who he was and why he could never have nice things. "I'm sorry I hurt you." It didn't mean he was going to stop, though.

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She didn't know if that answer made her feel better or worse. She uncovered her face and sighed, telling herself she shouldn't just flee. "Yeah, well. You don't seem to want to not to, either. You don't love me, you don't want to be with me, I've known that for years." Since their last breakup, actually. "But this is why I don't think I matter at all to you."

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"You're wrong," he said, fully prepared to clap a hand over his mouth if he couldn't hold back the why from slipping out. "You've never for one moment considered how any of this affected me and dammit, Jaina, you do not get to paint yourself a victim here!"

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"No, I've considered it," she shot back. "You break up with your girlfriend of three years and date someone else the same week, and if you're saying I matter then that's the first sign that something's up. But fine. Tell me how I'm wrong. Tell me how it's affected you. I've wanted to know, and never knew how to ask in a way that wouldn't get me shut down."

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"I was living on a different planet! Things were not right between us and you know that just as well as I do! It was years for me and days for you and you still haven't figured out a way that won't get you shut down." As he said that last part, John stood and started walking back toward the entrance.

[solo_sword]

"Don't go," she said, getting up to follow him. "I know now that things weren't right. I didn't back then. All you've told me before now is that you gave up trying to make things not suck. Since then all I get are mixed signals and what I hear on radio. I want you to talk to me."

[missed-the-gate.livejournal.com]

"This is my apartment, I'm not the one leaving," he said, opening the door and leaning against the edge. "I know you want me to open up and share all my deep-dark secrets, but I refuse to let you take advantage of whatever forced honesty I seem to be suffering from tonight. Some things aren't meant to be said."

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Jaina stared at him, kind of unable to believe she was getting told to go, and she wasn't even getting sex out of the deal. "Yeah, there are some things I wish I hadn't said." Guess which ones. "Tell me you're not going to avoid me now."

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John just shook his head, nearly smacking it on the door. "Why would I avoid you? You'll sulk and refuse to come near me for weeks." See, there was that honesty in action.

[solo_sword]

"I'll sulk and probably curse you out several times, especially since I'm still not getting any, but I can't seem to stay away." Dammit.

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It did pain him to let her go when just the mention of not getting any sent a fresh flash of heat through his body. Man did their fights come at bad times. "I guess you wouldn't be interested in a quick round of hate sex since you're already mad at me." If he was gagged, he couldn't possibly tell the truth.

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The smart thing would be to go. And yet... She'd never had angry sex, and right now she was really very aware of that. "First, unless you've started hating me, it's not hate sex. Second, quick round nothing. It's been a while-" Two days, Jaina, it just feels like forever. "-if there's anything, we're doing it till we can't anymore."

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"Agreed." It was probably expected that when he shut the door, he moved to turn her back against it as he closed in, listing off his own requirements to this agreement. "Third, no questions during. This is not about honesty that isn't liking it rough and thinking you might need to break out the super strength."

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"Trust me, I don't want to ask anything. Maybe ever. Agreed," she said, sliding her arms around him and wondering why she hadn't done that first. "Rough sounds really good right now."

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"Good. Now stop talking and take off your clothes." At least his complete lack of patience with her gentle gesture was honest...right?

[solo_sword]

Well, that was just asking for a "Make me."

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John so preferred being the bottom in these situations. "Right, because I always have to do all the work," he muttered, reaching to tug her hands off of him and pin them over her head against the door. All the better to tug her shirt over her head and...leave it there. It would keep her quiet, right?

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"Hey," she frowned from under the shirt. The pinning was completely hot. This not so much.

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One hand still holding her arms up high, the other reached to undo her pants with practiced ease. "I'd ask if you were having a problem, but we swore no questions. And I already know the answer." He was so helpful.

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"This might help with the angry part," she warned him, arching her hips slightly towards him. Maybe not angry, but more annoyed.

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"You told me to make you," John reminded her, sending her pants to the floor with a push. The boots Jaina would have to deal with on her own. Especially when he was busy moving close enough to press against her and mock her through her shirt. "So that's what I'm doing."

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When he pressed against her like that, she really probably could deal with the shirt wherever. "Smartass," she said, trying to focus enough to use the Force to get her own shirt off, which was something she didn't think she'd be having to do at twenty-seven.

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Magically moving clothing was always fun, and John laughed at her struggle, releasing her hands so she could get out all the way. "Yeah, but you like it."