solo_sword: (sympathetic)
Jaina had been through this before, she knew (sort of) what to expect, and she knew the instant Anakin got here. It was both the best and the most anxiety-inducing feeling, because there was so much more everything now, starting with the two fifteen-month olds who were already getting overtired.

So she'd stayed at the hotel, because at least if they threw fits or anything they were contained, and she wouldn't have to worry about it stopping a needed conversation in public. And she opened herself up in the Force, knowing he'd know how to find her, and tried not to be too nervous.

It was fine.


[For one!]
solo_sword: (woe)
Jaina had been waiting for this for days, really. She'd tried to distract herself, tried to keep her mind off of it, but when she knew what Anakin was headed into, there wasn't really a way to distract herself. She still had nightmares about Myrkr, still remembered things too vividly, and try as she might she couldn't stop herself from wondering what Anakin was going through at almost any given second.

And then, right after getting home from one of her many visits to the gym over the last few days, she she didn't need to wonder what was happening there anymore.

She'd thought that having gone through this before, having lost both her brothers by now, knowing it was coming, it'd be easier. Somehow it just felt worse instead, and while the tears didn't surprise her in the least, the enormity of the hurt did.

So much for hoping it might be different this time.


[Establishy, cuz late. Woe.]
solo_sword: (woe)
ExpandThe instant Jacen's life blinked out of existence, Jaina felt like hers had, too. )


[NFB, NFI, OOC makes me happy. Dialogue and a couple things from Invincible by Troy Denning. I have had all the tears writing this, I am not even gonna lie.]
solo_sword: (you don't wanna try right now)
Basically, Jaina's visit so far seemed to mostly amount to difficult conversations she didn't want to have. It wasn't ideal, and there were better ways to spend her time in Fandom, but she'd known that would happen when she got to this point. And there were still more she had to have.

The one she hadn't counted on was the call she got from her Leia not long after waking up. At first Jaina had thought that her parents ha'd gotten word about how she was headed to a court-martial, but instead, Leia told her about how Jacen had tortured a woman to death during an interrogation. A woman named Ailyn Vel, who just so happened to be Boba Fett's daughter. Which was the point that Ben had told her was where she needed to start asking questions.

The real problem with knowing the future was not knowing what to do about it.

So she came clean about what had happened with the court-martial, and she would have told her mother at least a little of where she knew Jacen ended up, but from the sounds of it, Han and Leia knew the score, too. So she'd spare them that information for the moment.

When Jaina finally ended the call, she took a moment to just let it sink in, and then she had to start getting ready to face people like normal.


[Establishy, and details of conversation NFB.]
solo_sword: (maybe teasy)
ExpandThe ride from Han and Leia's new apartment to the Jedi Temple was spent mostly in silence, right up till Zekk had to open his mouth. )

[NFB, NFI, OOC okay. And so begins Legacy of the Force (finally). My apologies for the upcoming spam to your flists from here on and I promise to at least try not to be too annoying. Tracy... I'm gonna owe you a pony or something.]
solo_sword: (distracted)
Jaina woke up early even for her, letting the bad dream vanish from memory as she came more awake, though she knew what the dream was about because she'd been having them for months. It was accompanied by her first recognizeable thought of the day: It's been ten years.

She'd come to grips with losing Anakin years ago, though she'd never say she was over it. Most years, the day rolled around and she tried to ignore it if she could, and if the opportunity came to be with her family on that day, she jumped at it. Since she was finishing things up here, actually seeing her parents wasn't going to happen. That thought didn't make her feel great today. And then she'd think about calling her family in Fandom and start worrying about them and wishing she was there to help. She had to talk herself out of making calls anyway since they were probably dealing with whatever the situation was there and if she couldn't help, she was better off waiting a few days or so. Weirdly, having something new to worry about took some of the focus off the decade-old sadness and loss.

Granted, she would think way differently if she had any idea what was really going on there.

Jaina refused to let things get to her today. Life went on, and she had work to do, and she had to keep her focus on what she was doing now. She got up, deciding that if she was going to be up, she was going to be doing something productive. Maybe she'd wake Zekk up for an early morning sparring session. She was sure he'd know why.


[Somehow unsurprising the traumaversary fell on BDE days. Mostly establishy as I think maybe people have other things on their minds right now, but can be open for calls, etc.]
solo_sword: (distracted)
Jaina woke up early even for her, letting the bad dream vanish from memory as she came more awake, though she knew what the dream was about because she'd been having them for months. It was accompanied by her first recognizeable thought of the day: It's been ten years.

She'd come to grips with losing Anakin years ago, though she'd never say she was over it. Most years, the day rolled around and she tried to ignore it if she could, and if the opportunity came to be with her family on that day, she jumped at it. Since she was finishing things up here, actually seeing her parents wasn't going to happen. That thought didn't make her feel great today. And then she'd think about calling her family in Fandom and start worrying about them and wishing she was there to help. She had to talk herself out of making calls anyway since they were probably dealing with whatever the situation was there and if she couldn't help, she was better off waiting a few days or so. Weirdly, having something new to worry about took some of the focus off the decade-old sadness and loss.

Granted, she would think way differently if she had any idea what was really going on there.

Jaina refused to let things get to her today. Life went on, and she had work to do, and she had to keep her focus on what she was doing now. She got up, deciding that if she was going to be up, she was going to be doing something productive. Maybe she'd wake Zekk up for an early morning sparring session. She was sure he'd know why.


[Somehow unsurprising the traumaversary fell on BDE days. Mostly establishy as I think maybe people have other things on their minds right now, but can be open for calls, etc.]
solo_sword: (sleepytime)
It was hard for Jaina to shut her brain off enough to get to sleep these days, which she found annoying. Often enough she wondered just how bad she'd be cheating if she just knocked herself out with a trance, and while she was never going to actually do it, it did seem really tempting some nights.

ExpandTimes like this, it was a really good thing she didn't. )
solo_sword: (sleepytime)
It was hard for Jaina to shut her brain off enough to get to sleep these days, which she found annoying. Often enough she wondered just how bad she'd be cheating if she just knocked herself out with a trance, and while she was never going to actually do it, it did seem really tempting some nights.

ExpandTimes like this, it was a really good thing she didn't. )
solo_sword: (sleepytime)
It was early when Jaina woke up from the nightmare, the kind of early where you don't need to look at the clock to know that you didn't need to get out of bed for hours yet. She didn't have the nightmares as often anymore, to the point where she could forget she had them at all most days, and she knew why she was having them again now. The anniversary was coming up again.

Expandcut so you don't have to read it! )


[Establishy as it is book day, and NFB.]

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